10/29/2007

What is this life...

First day back and all is well.  Folks were very friendly and welcoming...I think they may be genuinely glad to see me return ; -}  Perhaps after the summer exodus of staff, it feels slightly reassuring that someone might actually return! 

As part of my 'break' recap, I took a little photo for the album - the books I read (most of them...some have been returned or passed on).  I start a new one tomorrow - Left to Tell:  Discovering God Amidst the Rwandan Holocaust, by Immaculee Ilibagiza.

A couple of weeks ago I went in hunt of a poem my mom used to recite all the time.  I found myself saying outloud several times a day in the days leading up to my break.

It's called Leisure, by W.H.Davies, a Welshman who traveled to America.  I guess my mom knew him from Wales:  both she and dad grew up in a border county of Wales / England (Abertillery).

Leisure

WHAT is this life if, full of care,
We have no time to stand and stare?—

No time to stand beneath the boughs,
And stare as long as sheep and cows:

No time to see, when woods we pass,
Where squirrels hide their nuts in grass:

No time to see, in broad daylight,
Streams full of stars, like skies at night:

No time to turn at Beauty's glance,
And watch her feet, how they can dance:

No time to wait till her mouth can
Enrich that smile her eyes began?

A poor life this if, full of care,
We have no time to stand and stare.

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NOTE TO SELF:  Self, I say...self, the people at work seem to think that fun is not allowed.  Surely this is misguided.  Be sure to work on an anti-no-fun campaign.  It's time to bring playdoh and silly walks back!  Perhaps they will like my first comedy sketch:  The All-You-Must-Eat-Buffet. 

 

What is this life...

First day back and all is well.  Folks were very friendly and welcoming...I think they may be genuinely glad to see me return ; -}  Perhaps after the summer exodus of staff, it feels slightly reassuring that someone might actually return! 

As part of my 'break' recap, I took a little photo for the album - the books I read (most of them...some have been returned or passed on).  I start a new one tomorrow - Left to Tell:  Discovering God Amidst the Rwandan Holocaust, by Immaculee Ilibagiza.

A couple of weeks ago I went in hunt of a poem my mom used to recite all the time.  I found myself saying outloud several times a day in the days leading up to my break.

It's called Leisure, by W.H.Davies, a Welshman who traveled to America.  I guess my mom knew him from Wales:  both she and dad grew up in a border county of Wales / England (Abertillery).

Leisure

WHAT is this life if, full of care,
We have no time to stand and stare?—

No time to stand beneath the boughs,
And stare as long as sheep and cows:

No time to see, when woods we pass,
Where squirrels hide their nuts in grass:

No time to see, in broad daylight,
Streams full of stars, like skies at night:

No time to turn at Beauty's glance,
And watch her feet, how they can dance:

No time to wait till her mouth can
Enrich that smile her eyes began?

A poor life this if, full of care,
We have no time to stand and stare.

-----------------------------------------------------

NOTE TO SELF:  Self, I say...self, the people at work seem to think that fun is not allowed.  Surely this is misguided.  Be sure to work on an anti-no-fun campaign.  It's time to bring playdoh and silly walks back!  Perhaps they will like my first comedy sketch:  The All-You-Must-Eat-Buffet. 

 

10/26/2007

Comedy Central - Here I Come!

What a night!  I had my first (7pm - 10pm) class at the Upright Citizens Brigade Theatre (www.ucbtheatre.com).  Opened in 1999, it is the birthing spot of some of the best comedic talent NYC has to offer.  In 2006, UCB opened the first comedy training center of its kind in NYC.  Students from UCB have gone on to write and perform for SNL, Conan, Mad TV, the Daily Show, Late Night with Craig Ferguson, etc.  Charlie Sanders, who is our instructor, has his own show every Saturday night downtown and often appears in sketches with Conan O'Brien.

So...in this deal, I am the oldest (although I did see some older looking folks who were heading toward the Improv classes), but four of us are neophytes to UCB (everyone else is on their second or third Improv class).  I was a bit worried at the start of class when we went around and introduced ourselves:  these folks were mentioning comedy sketch shows on cable that I had never heard of!  Not having cable may be an issue...but I'm heading to the video store today to see what I can find on DVD.

I introduced myself as a Social Worker.  I thought it might be fun in a room full of improv artists (narcissistic) in New York (neurotic), creating some fresh anxiety!  Instead I find out how cool they all think it is that I get paid to help people (most of them are volunteering time and helping do 'charity' work). So much for identifying any anxious narcissistic neurotics...maybe I was projecting....

Anyway!  As we went around the room, we had to say what our favorite sketch show is and our favorite sketch.  When Erica (no...I bet that's EriKa, with a 'K') said that she liked "really old Saturday Night Live sketches" I worried...how much older am I than these people?

So...any guesses to what my pick was favorite sketch show...come one!  Monty Python!  And my favorite sketch (click on the archives button on the right-hand side panel if you can't recall...8/15/07 -http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XMOmB1q8W4Y ) - The Job Interview!  Thankfully, Charlie, our instructor, loves Monty and knew the sketch.  But I got to act some of it out - which was a big hit!  'I want to be A LION TAMER!  I have a hat!  it LIGHTS UP!' 

Talk about life coming full circle, huh?  When I started my leave I had that odd experience of waking in the middle of the night and having a Monty Python review on.   And then the job interview sketch played and I thought for sure I was going to hear God's voiceover saying, "listen Sandra...listen, and learn".

Anywho!  I learned all sorts of cool Sketch terminology last night (game, heightening, beats, blows and buttons...sounds a little S&Mish) and we did a read-through.  It's interesting to observe all these young folk.  Bless their little hearts, they were trying so hard.  But they were trying so hard to be funny, they got weird and abstract...and their short life-experience surfaced.

For instance, Charlie gave us the topic "Christmas morning" and asked someone to tell a story that we could use to frame a sketch.  So we get the story of a guy who plays drinking games on Christmas Eve, gets drunk, ends up at IHop at 5am Christmas morning, trying to get sober enough to go open presents at his parent's house at 9am.

Huh?  I'm not sure I see any humor.  And the class sure struggled.  I suggested we could focus on the IHop and play with the idea of where Santa goes for breakfast after he gets off of work.  I probably pushed it when I suggested he walk into IHop with 208 midget illegal immigrants....But Stephanie, who sat across from me...she gets it.  Her mind is sharp!  She suggested we see the Anti-Claus, how Santa is just really a hard working blue-collar SOB with a big belly.  Oh wait...did Billy Bob Thorton do a movie like that about a year ago?  Oh well....

Then we did small group work (L&D team - I think you would have liked Charlie's teaching style, aside from the profanity!  Class included some lecture, big group discussion, watching a couple of DVD sketches and discussing, small group work, and a break!).  My partner was Todd.  He's been writing sketches "for something, like, uh, wow, like, twenty years or something like that".  I think he's 22. 

Anyway!  Charlie gave us some starters and one was "the office party".  So Todd has a memory of going to his first office party, about 2 weeks after he started his job, and getting "totally shit-faced" (do we see a theme here?) and leaving "this nice lady's house" and going to a bar and finding a glove.  Then he wore the glove the rest of the night.

That was it.  Funny, wasn't it?  NOT!  Maybe when you're drunk, but...I did my best to help Todd develop a sketch from that experience.  I used my psychotherapist experience (I'm not ready to share that about myself, yet!) and got him to focus on the aspect of going to a party and wanting to feel unique, and doing so by being slightly bizarre, only to find out that everyone in the party is just like you!

Me...I liked the Buffet Breakfast idea.  People do some strange things at buffets, have you ever noticed?  Anyway, thegist is that a family of four from some foreign land comes into the buffet and want very hard to fit into American Culture.  The buffet they've happened upon is a pre-big Friday night football game buffet, so there are cheerleaders in the dining room, banners, everyone's dressed in school colors and yelling...getting psyched for the game.

The father says to the waitress, "we are here for the All-You-Must-Eat dinner."  The family seems to have deduced that this is a competitive eating event (how American!).

After starting with small, "European portion" plates, the family sees how everyone around them is piling food on their plate, coming back to tables with 2 or 3 plates, etc.  They begin to worry that they are 'losing' the event. 

So they make return trips to the buffet, first taking the entire container of food, then stealing one of the carts used to pick up dirty plates, and piling food on that.  The panic increases as everyone else in the restaurant finishes and starts to leave for the game.  They don't want to be last!

The ending is that they are the last in the restaurant and realize that they have "lost the contest - we can no make good Americans".  They are surrounded by all this food and then the waitress drags in a big refrigerator box "for the leftovers".

Ok...it's that or the lady on the airplane who comes on with her husband and her hat box - and puts her husband in the overhead bin and gives the seat to the hat box!

We'll see...my biggest challenge is that I love physical comedy, so to get my characters to stand still and just be funny using words will be a push.  But this is going to be great and will help immensely in some personal development areas, such as presenting my ideas, dealing with conflict, and assertiveness (note to my 'coaches'!).

 

 

Comedy Central - Here I Come!

What a night!  I had my first (7pm - 10pm) class at the Upright Citizens Brigade Theatre (www.ucbtheatre.com).  Opened in 1999, it is the birthing spot of some of the best comedic talent NYC has to offer.  In 2006, UCB opened the first comedy training center of its kind in NYC.  Students from UCB have gone on to write and perform for SNL, Conan, Mad TV, the Daily Show, Late Night with Craig Ferguson, etc.  Charlie Sanders, who is our instructor, has his own show every Saturday night downtown and often appears in sketches with Conan O'Brien.

So...in this deal, I am the oldest (although I did see some older looking folks who were heading toward the Improv classes), but four of us are neophytes to UCB (everyone else is on their second or third Improv class).  I was a bit worried at the start of class when we went around and introduced ourselves:  these folks were mentioning comedy sketch shows on cable that I had never heard of!  Not having cable may be an issue...but I'm heading to the video store today to see what I can find on DVD.

I introduced myself as a Social Worker.  I thought it might be fun in a room full of improv artists (narcissistic) in New York (neurotic), creating some fresh anxiety!  Instead I find out how cool they all think it is that I get paid to help people (most of them are volunteering time and helping do 'charity' work). So much for identifying any anxious narcissistic neurotics...maybe I was projecting....

Anyway!  As we went around the room, we had to say what our favorite sketch show is and our favorite sketch.  When Erica (no...I bet that's EriKa, with a 'K') said that she liked "really old Saturday Night Live sketches" I worried...how much older am I than these people?

So...any guesses to what my pick was favorite sketch show...come one!  Monty Python!  And my favorite sketch (click on the archives button on the right-hand side panel if you can't recall...8/15/07 -http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XMOmB1q8W4Y ) - The Job Interview!  Thankfully, Charlie, our instructor, loves Monty and knew the sketch.  But I got to act some of it out - which was a big hit!  'I want to be A LION TAMER!  I have a hat!  it LIGHTS UP!' 

Talk about life coming full circle, huh?  When I started my leave I had that odd experience of waking in the middle of the night and having a Monty Python review on.   And then the job interview sketch played and I thought for sure I was going to hear God's voiceover saying, "listen Sandra...listen, and learn".

Anywho!  I learned all sorts of cool Sketch terminology last night (game, heightening, beats, blows and buttons...sounds a little S&Mish) and we did a read-through.  It's interesting to observe all these young folk.  Bless their little hearts, they were trying so hard.  But they were trying so hard to be funny, they got weird and abstract...and their short life-experience surfaced.

For instance, Charlie gave us the topic "Christmas morning" and asked someone to tell a story that we could use to frame a sketch.  So we get the story of a guy who plays drinking games on Christmas Eve, gets drunk, ends up at IHop at 5am Christmas morning, trying to get sober enough to go open presents at his parent's house at 9am.

Huh?  I'm not sure I see any humor.  And the class sure struggled.  I suggested we could focus on the IHop and play with the idea of where Santa goes for breakfast after he gets off of work.  I probably pushed it when I suggested he walk into IHop with 208 midget illegal immigrants....But Stephanie, who sat across from me...she gets it.  Her mind is sharp!  She suggested we see the Anti-Claus, how Santa is just really a hard working blue-collar SOB with a big belly.  Oh wait...did Billy Bob Thorton do a movie like that about a year ago?  Oh well....

Then we did small group work (L&D team - I think you would have liked Charlie's teaching style, aside from the profanity!  Class included some lecture, big group discussion, watching a couple of DVD sketches and discussing, small group work, and a break!).  My partner was Todd.  He's been writing sketches "for something, like, uh, wow, like, twenty years or something like that".  I think he's 22. 

Anyway!  Charlie gave us some starters and one was "the office party".  So Todd has a memory of going to his first office party, about 2 weeks after he started his job, and getting "totally shit-faced" (do we see a theme here?) and leaving "this nice lady's house" and going to a bar and finding a glove.  Then he wore the glove the rest of the night.

That was it.  Funny, wasn't it?  NOT!  Maybe when you're drunk, but...I did my best to help Todd develop a sketch from that experience.  I used my psychotherapist experience (I'm not ready to share that about myself, yet!) and got him to focus on the aspect of going to a party and wanting to feel unique, and doing so by being slightly bizarre, only to find out that everyone in the party is just like you!

Me...I liked the Buffet Breakfast idea.  People do some strange things at buffets, have you ever noticed?  Anyway, thegist is that a family of four from some foreign land comes into the buffet and want very hard to fit into American Culture.  The buffet they've happened upon is a pre-big Friday night football game buffet, so there are cheerleaders in the dining room, banners, everyone's dressed in school colors and yelling...getting psyched for the game.

The father says to the waitress, "we are here for the All-You-Must-Eat dinner."  The family seems to have deduced that this is a competitive eating event (how American!).

After starting with small, "European portion" plates, the family sees how everyone around them is piling food on their plate, coming back to tables with 2 or 3 plates, etc.  They begin to worry that they are 'losing' the event. 

So they make return trips to the buffet, first taking the entire container of food, then stealing one of the carts used to pick up dirty plates, and piling food on that.  The panic increases as everyone else in the restaurant finishes and starts to leave for the game.  They don't want to be last!

The ending is that they are the last in the restaurant and realize that they have "lost the contest - we can no make good Americans".  They are surrounded by all this food and then the waitress drags in a big refrigerator box "for the leftovers".

Ok...it's that or the lady on the airplane who comes on with her husband and her hat box - and puts her husband in the overhead bin and gives the seat to the hat box!

We'll see...my biggest challenge is that I love physical comedy, so to get my characters to stand still and just be funny using words will be a push.  But this is going to be great and will help immensely in some personal development areas, such as presenting my ideas, dealing with conflict, and assertiveness (note to my 'coaches'!).

 

 

10/24/2007

Additional Reflections and Recommendations

I have an amazing hodge-podge of stuff for you today - ready?

Go see Across the University if you have any interest in the Beatles, '60s, evolution, Vietnam, love, peace.... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bQ6d3m-GFyw  As you watch and listen to the clip, please note that these actors all sang their OWN songs!  The woman who is the Janis Joplin-like figure is AWESOME! 

I pride myself in being a Beatles fan, but there were 3 songs I have no recollection of. 

Funny story here - how I became familiar with the Beatles and why (as some of you know), I know the words to Dean Martin, Bing Crosby, Nat King Cole (etc.) music.  When we came to America from Britain, our belongings came via ship and were packed into crates that were about 4'x4'.  When mom had finished unpacking all the crates (which had been in storage for a while since my parents still had to buy a house, so we rented a furnished home), she discovered that one crate had been mixed up with someone else's (whose, we never learned, since they weren't marked with names).

She discovered that all of the baby stuff (I had just turned 5, but I believe they were planning on more family!) and all of her British baking pans (jam tarts, triffle, custard tins, etc.) were gone and in their place were....record albums!  Nearly 100!

So throughout my childhood, almost every day through age ten, then on bad weather days as I got older, I would play in the basement and listen to the albums!  There were also some wonderful classical albums, including Opera, but they weren't vinyl - they were the old 78's that smashed to hundreds of tiny bits the day the shelf fell off the wall!  My mom was crushed (as those were here favorites).

Not to worry...she found a replacement or two:  Blondie and the Bee Gee's!

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My visit with Janae (8 1/2) and Aiden (5) was lots of fun.  I talked the family out of going to church Sunday and instead going pumpkin picking!  Now, you have to picture this...my brother, his wife, and both the kids are (bright orange) redheads.  I'm the least red of them.  So there we are - 5 redheads in the pumpkin patch....I told Aiden he had to be careful or someone would pick him!

We fed chickens and horses, and did a huge corn maze!  If you haven't done the corn maze thing, I highly recommend it!  I helped save a lost 12 year old (separated from his church group - who I noted wasn't in church either!), we found 5 of the 6 clues (so did not win the prize, much to my brother's frustration!), and got a little sunburn!

After 6 hours of picking, mazing, and playing, we headed home for Connie's Pizza.  It's a local 'Chicago-style' pizza place in the burbs, but I love to order from them because it's my nod to mom.  When she was dying (of stomach cancer - pause for irony), aside from her IV drip and methadone, what she loved to have when I would come for a visit was Connie's pizza and a glass of Baileys!  Before she became too sick, she and I would drive to pick the pizza up and get in some great mom 'n me time.  She'd lost so much weight, that she said the pizza felt good on her lap:  warming her up.  So we raised a couple of slices to mom and planned faces for our pumpkins!

And yes...I did bring a pumpkin home - in my checked bag!  I decided that if TSA thinks cheese is a liquid, they'd never let me on with a pumpkin!  Winona, pumpkins, niece and nephew...and dad got an all-clear on his cancer yesterday! 

That's life across my universe....

 

Additional Reflections and Recommendations

I have an amazing hodge-podge of stuff for you today - ready?

Go see Across the University if you have any interest in the Beatles, '60s, evolution, Vietnam, love, peace.... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bQ6d3m-GFyw  As you watch and listen to the clip, please note that these actors all sang their OWN songs!  The woman who is the Janis Joplin-like figure is AWESOME! 

I pride myself in being a Beatles fan, but there were 3 songs I have no recollection of. 

Funny story here - how I became familiar with the Beatles and why (as some of you know), I know the words to Dean Martin, Bing Crosby, Nat King Cole (etc.) music.  When we came to America from Britain, our belongings came via ship and were packed into crates that were about 4'x4'.  When mom had finished unpacking all the crates (which had been in storage for a while since my parents still had to buy a house, so we rented a furnished home), she discovered that one crate had been mixed up with someone else's (whose, we never learned, since they weren't marked with names).

She discovered that all of the baby stuff (I had just turned 5, but I believe they were planning on more family!) and all of her British baking pans (jam tarts, triffle, custard tins, etc.) were gone and in their place were....record albums!  Nearly 100!

So throughout my childhood, almost every day through age ten, then on bad weather days as I got older, I would play in the basement and listen to the albums!  There were also some wonderful classical albums, including Opera, but they weren't vinyl - they were the old 78's that smashed to hundreds of tiny bits the day the shelf fell off the wall!  My mom was crushed (as those were here favorites).

Not to worry...she found a replacement or two:  Blondie and the Bee Gee's!

-------------------------------------------------------------------

My visit with Janae (8 1/2) and Aiden (5) was lots of fun.  I talked the family out of going to church Sunday and instead going pumpkin picking!  Now, you have to picture this...my brother, his wife, and both the kids are (bright orange) redheads.  I'm the least red of them.  So there we are - 5 redheads in the pumpkin patch....I told Aiden he had to be careful or someone would pick him!

We fed chickens and horses, and did a huge corn maze!  If you haven't done the corn maze thing, I highly recommend it!  I helped save a lost 12 year old (separated from his church group - who I noted wasn't in church either!), we found 5 of the 6 clues (so did not win the prize, much to my brother's frustration!), and got a little sunburn!

After 6 hours of picking, mazing, and playing, we headed home for Connie's Pizza.  It's a local 'Chicago-style' pizza place in the burbs, but I love to order from them because it's my nod to mom.  When she was dying (of stomach cancer - pause for irony), aside from her IV drip and methadone, what she loved to have when I would come for a visit was Connie's pizza and a glass of Baileys!  Before she became too sick, she and I would drive to pick the pizza up and get in some great mom 'n me time.  She'd lost so much weight, that she said the pizza felt good on her lap:  warming her up.  So we raised a couple of slices to mom and planned faces for our pumpkins!

And yes...I did bring a pumpkin home - in my checked bag!  I decided that if TSA thinks cheese is a liquid, they'd never let me on with a pumpkin!  Winona, pumpkins, niece and nephew...and dad got an all-clear on his cancer yesterday! 

That's life across my universe....

 

10/23/2007

Last week of my "break"

I don't think I ever shared with you that I had a "break" theme.  Yep.  I did.  I discovered it in late May, shortly after deciding to take a leave of absence.  It was perfect!  Upbeat, silly lyrics, some funkiness in the middle.  And Alice Smith is a very soulful singer (in the genre of Nina Simone and some of those marvelous vocalists).

If you have a moment, take a listen by clicking on the link below.  If you printed this and are not on-line, here are the lyrics:

http://www.artistdirect.com/nad/window/media/player/0,,3558309-7830786-RMLO,00.html

I woke up in NYC
With a bunch of anxiety
Rent's due in a couple of weeks
Yo, I had this really fucked up dream and
I just let it slip away
Thinking about all the bills I got to pay
I think I'll hock my trinity
And buy it back on a better day

Spent ten days in Woodstock taking it easy
So would you please excuse me
'Cause I'm feeling quite sad and I'm happy again
Because I spent ten days in Woodstock taking it easy
Feeling mellow like a cello
Go ahead part the seas and say hello to the fishes for me

Wow, man, what a sunny day
I can't wait to get out and play
Walk down those city streets
Laughing at all those city creeps and
I got a lot to organ-iz-ize
Got a lot of thinking to do
Another day the sun'll be out
Another day the sky will be blue

All the crazy fish say'...wa, wa, wa....
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So, the trip to Winona, MN was great!  It was my first meeting at the Advisory Board chair of the Saint Teresa Leadership and Service Institute (STI) at Saint Mary's University:  http://www.smumn.edu/sitepages/pid1187.php    

The program is in its' third year and the birthing process has been challenging!   My connection to the program is through the College of St. Teresa (CST), my alma mater.  CST closed in 1987, but an alumna made a significant contribution to Saint Mary's to start the program.  We have $150,000 in scholarship funds raised and have the biggest non-academic budget on campus. 

There are 33 women in the program, 17 of whom will graduate this spring.  We had hoped to be at 50 students this year; however, we've struggled to 'sell' the program.  The focus is tri-fold: co-curricular (4 women's only courses on Leadership and Franciscan/Teresan/LaSallian values), residential (members are asked to live in community with one another for the first two years), and service-focused (women have to work on several service opportunities in leadership roles).

We have the most racially diverse group on campus and our performance metrics outperform other groups:  our student retention rate is the highest.  We spent a significant amount of time at this meeting working on identified measurable outcomes and working with the institutional research group on evaluation measures.  I hope you're proud!

Winona is a very special place for me.  It's a city that sits on the Mississippi, surrounded by bluffs.  The drive down to Winona from the twin cities is amazing this time of year.  The colors are just blazing!  Watching the barges go down the river with the Wisconsin bluffs on one side and the Minnesota bluffs on the other....

Although CST is closed and most of the property has been sold to the local high school or Winona State University, the chapel and Alverna Hall (where the nuns used to live!) belong to Saint Mary's.   The chapel is special to me because it is where I was baptized, confirmed and received first communion.   I can't tell you how much CST 'raised' me.  I would not be the woman I am today had it not been for the College.  I still stay in touch with Sister Margaret who was my advisor for Pax Christi/Bread for the World.  She has been an amazing source of support for me during my 'break'.

All in all...the trip was perfect. The time spent with a marvelous group of women who sit on the Advisory Board with me is always of value.  Although I'm the youngest (most are in their mid- to late-60's), they tolerate me well and patiently teach me how to be the best leader I can be.  They love to telll me stories of the days when Teresan women couldn't leave campus without hats and gloves, share their knowledge of working with university staff and faculty (3 are retired PhD's), and I'm even learning a thing or two about single-malt scotch!

I put together a little slide show for you from the Teresan Book on Manners - enjoy!

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Last week of my "break"

I don't think I ever shared with you that I had a "break" theme.  Yep.  I did.  I discovered it in late May, shortly after deciding to take a leave of absence.  It was perfect!  Upbeat, silly lyrics, some funkiness in the middle.  And Alice Smith is a very soulful singer (in the genre of Nina Simone and some of those marvelous vocalists).

If you have a moment, take a listen by clicking on the link below.  If you printed this and are not on-line, here are the lyrics:

http://www.artistdirect.com/nad/window/media/player/0,,3558309-7830786-RMLO,00.html

I woke up in NYC
With a bunch of anxiety
Rent's due in a couple of weeks
Yo, I had this really fucked up dream and
I just let it slip away
Thinking about all the bills I got to pay
I think I'll hock my trinity
And buy it back on a better day

Spent ten days in Woodstock taking it easy
So would you please excuse me
'Cause I'm feeling quite sad and I'm happy again
Because I spent ten days in Woodstock taking it easy
Feeling mellow like a cello
Go ahead part the seas and say hello to the fishes for me

Wow, man, what a sunny day
I can't wait to get out and play
Walk down those city streets
Laughing at all those city creeps and
I got a lot to organ-iz-ize
Got a lot of thinking to do
Another day the sun'll be out
Another day the sky will be blue

All the crazy fish say'...wa, wa, wa....
---------------------------------------------------------------------------------

So, the trip to Winona, MN was great!  It was my first meeting at the Advisory Board chair of the Saint Teresa Leadership and Service Institute (STI) at Saint Mary's University:  http://www.smumn.edu/sitepages/pid1187.php    

The program is in its' third year and the birthing process has been challenging!   My connection to the program is through the College of St. Teresa (CST), my alma mater.  CST closed in 1987, but an alumna made a significant contribution to Saint Mary's to start the program.  We have $150,000 in scholarship funds raised and have the biggest non-academic budget on campus. 

There are 33 women in the program, 17 of whom will graduate this spring.  We had hoped to be at 50 students this year; however, we've struggled to 'sell' the program.  The focus is tri-fold: co-curricular (4 women's only courses on Leadership and Franciscan/Teresan/LaSallian values), residential (members are asked to live in community with one another for the first two years), and service-focused (women have to work on several service opportunities in leadership roles).

We have the most racially diverse group on campus and our performance metrics outperform other groups:  our student retention rate is the highest.  We spent a significant amount of time at this meeting working on identified measurable outcomes and working with the institutional research group on evaluation measures.  I hope you're proud!

Winona is a very special place for me.  It's a city that sits on the Mississippi, surrounded by bluffs.  The drive down to Winona from the twin cities is amazing this time of year.  The colors are just blazing!  Watching the barges go down the river with the Wisconsin bluffs on one side and the Minnesota bluffs on the other....

Although CST is closed and most of the property has been sold to the local high school or Winona State University, the chapel and Alverna Hall (where the nuns used to live!) belong to Saint Mary's.   The chapel is special to me because it is where I was baptized, confirmed and received first communion.   I can't tell you how much CST 'raised' me.  I would not be the woman I am today had it not been for the College.  I still stay in touch with Sister Margaret who was my advisor for Pax Christi/Bread for the World.  She has been an amazing source of support for me during my 'break'.

All in all...the trip was perfect. The time spent with a marvelous group of women who sit on the Advisory Board with me is always of value.  Although I'm the youngest (most are in their mid- to late-60's), they tolerate me well and patiently teach me how to be the best leader I can be.  They love to telll me stories of the days when Teresan women couldn't leave campus without hats and gloves, share their knowledge of working with university staff and faculty (3 are retired PhD's), and I'm even learning a thing or two about single-malt scotch!

I put together a little slide show for you from the Teresan Book on Manners - enjoy!

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10/12/2007

Weekly Update

Have you ever woken up and seen a dragon outside of your window?  I DID!!  I don't know when he came into the neighborhood (maybe on all the wind and rain we had in NYC yesterday...), bur sure 'nuf - there he was!  Can you see him?  He's very green and leafy looking, and his wings are buried in the tree...but there he is!  See his fangs (lower left-hand corner)?

It was great seeing folks yesterday in Philly.  Let's see, in two weeks time I've been able to re-connect with a whole lot of folks - how energizing!  It felt good to be back in the office.  Things were quiet...somewhat still, I'd say.  People were very welcoming, in general.  I did observe a small group of people who were more reserved...polite, but reserved.  It seems like there's a group of staff who are feeling worried, cautious and anxious.  The recent staff turnovers are creating a lot of that.  I think the fact that a number of professional staff have left is disconcerting for some people. 

Good discussions with folks.  I felt clear, able to move at my own pace.  The debrief with my testing guy went very well.  We talked a lot about my personal leadership challenges in relation to the BBBSA culture.  The question I must really reflect on is whether BBBSA will allow me to make the changes I need.  I know that the people, individually, will support me (many of you have already begun to step into the role).  But the culture...can I make the changes in the BBBSA environment?  Much to think about....

Exciting News!  I was accepted  by the Institute of Children's Literature!  I'll need to make a decision about this by next week, but if I decide to do it, it's a remote tutoring-style learning opportunity. You spend the year working on a variety of writing assignments that are submitted to you tutor for editing and commentary.  They gave me an interesting tutor.  She's published a series of non-fiction books on historical places and one sci-fi book for young adults.  I think I was assigned to her because my writing goal is a series:  Stanley and Moose.  I have two outlined and four more identified.  I would finish the program with 6 college credits, several manuscripts, and letters to publishers ready to go.

When I told Judy about this (and my comedy sketch writing course that starts in 2 weeks), she looked worried and surprised!  She kept asking how I would manage all of that and work.  I looked her straight in the eye and said, "this was intentional on my part".  The fact that I lost all life-balance means that I have to be sure I have some commitments outside of work that I can honor in order to make sure I'm getting my needs met.  Judy said it made sense to her, but I could see she's still a bit worried. 

The Institute is an at-your-own-pace program, and allows for extensions, leaves, etc.  I feel certain I can make it work.  It would allow me to indulge in something I enjoy, yet challenge me to take a risk and stretch myself in a new way...it's a creative outlet and would help me to turn-off from work.  It also means discipline and setting boundaries around work.  I think it's this or a true 9-5 job...do those exist anymore?

I hope to have a decision about BBBSA by Monday...in the meantime, time to go check the mail then finish up my latest book, "Eats, Shoot & Leaves," by Lynne Truss: 

A panda walks into a cafe.  he orders a sandwich, eats it, then draws a gun and fires two shots in the air.

"Why?" asked the confused waiter, as the padna makes toward the exit.  the panda produces a badly puncturated wildlife manual and tosses it over his shoulder.

"I'm a panda," he says at the door.  "Look it up."

The waiter turns to the relevant entry and, sure enough, finds an explaination.

"Panda.  Large black-and-white bear-like animal, native to China.  Eats, shoots and leaves."

I'm reading it as part of research I'm doing for an AlmostNearlyReady article, due out next week.  In the meantime - IT'S A HOOT!  The author is a Brit, so how can this not be good!  She has my humour!

     "Now, there are no laws against imprisoning apostrophes and making them look daft.  Cruelty to punctuation is quite unlegislated:  you can get away with pulling the legs off semicolon; shriveling question marks on the garden path under  a powerful magnifying glass; you name it...Too many jobs have been heaped upon this tiny mark, and - far from complaining - the apostrophe has seemingly requested "More weight", just like that martyrish old codger in Arthur Miller's The Crucible...."

Weekly Update

Have you ever woken up and seen a dragon outside of your window?  I DID!!  I don't know when he came into the neighborhood (maybe on all the wind and rain we had in NYC yesterday...), bur sure 'nuf - there he was!  Can you see him?  He's very green and leafy looking, and his wings are buried in the tree...but there he is!  See his fangs (lower left-hand corner)?

It was great seeing folks yesterday in Philly.  Let's see, in two weeks time I've been able to re-connect with a whole lot of folks - how energizing!  It felt good to be back in the office.  Things were quiet...somewhat still, I'd say.  People were very welcoming, in general.  I did observe a small group of people who were more reserved...polite, but reserved.  It seems like there's a group of staff who are feeling worried, cautious and anxious.  The recent staff turnovers are creating a lot of that.  I think the fact that a number of professional staff have left is disconcerting for some people. 

Good discussions with folks.  I felt clear, able to move at my own pace.  The debrief with my testing guy went very well.  We talked a lot about my personal leadership challenges in relation to the BBBSA culture.  The question I must really reflect on is whether BBBSA will allow me to make the changes I need.  I know that the people, individually, will support me (many of you have already begun to step into the role).  But the culture...can I make the changes in the BBBSA environment?  Much to think about....

Exciting News!  I was accepted  by the Institute of Children's Literature!  I'll need to make a decision about this by next week, but if I decide to do it, it's a remote tutoring-style learning opportunity. You spend the year working on a variety of writing assignments that are submitted to you tutor for editing and commentary.  They gave me an interesting tutor.  She's published a series of non-fiction books on historical places and one sci-fi book for young adults.  I think I was assigned to her because my writing goal is a series:  Stanley and Moose.  I have two outlined and four more identified.  I would finish the program with 6 college credits, several manuscripts, and letters to publishers ready to go.

When I told Judy about this (and my comedy sketch writing course that starts in 2 weeks), she looked worried and surprised!  She kept asking how I would manage all of that and work.  I looked her straight in the eye and said, "this was intentional on my part".  The fact that I lost all life-balance means that I have to be sure I have some commitments outside of work that I can honor in order to make sure I'm getting my needs met.  Judy said it made sense to her, but I could see she's still a bit worried. 

The Institute is an at-your-own-pace program, and allows for extensions, leaves, etc.  I feel certain I can make it work.  It would allow me to indulge in something I enjoy, yet challenge me to take a risk and stretch myself in a new way...it's a creative outlet and would help me to turn-off from work.  It also means discipline and setting boundaries around work.  I think it's this or a true 9-5 job...do those exist anymore?

I hope to have a decision about BBBSA by Monday...in the meantime, time to go check the mail then finish up my latest book, "Eats, Shoot & Leaves," by Lynne Truss: 

A panda walks into a cafe.  he orders a sandwich, eats it, then draws a gun and fires two shots in the air.

"Why?" asked the confused waiter, as the padna makes toward the exit.  the panda produces a badly puncturated wildlife manual and tosses it over his shoulder.

"I'm a panda," he says at the door.  "Look it up."

The waiter turns to the relevant entry and, sure enough, finds an explaination.

"Panda.  Large black-and-white bear-like animal, native to China.  Eats, shoots and leaves."

I'm reading it as part of research I'm doing for an AlmostNearlyReady article, due out next week.  In the meantime - IT'S A HOOT!  The author is a Brit, so how can this not be good!  She has my humour!

     "Now, there are no laws against imprisoning apostrophes and making them look daft.  Cruelty to punctuation is quite unlegislated:  you can get away with pulling the legs off semicolon; shriveling question marks on the garden path under  a powerful magnifying glass; you name it...Too many jobs have been heaped upon this tiny mark, and - far from complaining - the apostrophe has seemingly requested "More weight", just like that martyrish old codger in Arthur Miller's The Crucible...."

10/08/2007

Catching Up Post-Key West

I'm back in the saddle again...la da da di da, da-da....So!  Did the number of emails everyone get last week go down 12.7%?  I figured with Beth, Tisha and Becca away... :-)

I have some follow-up news.  ML, from Dallas, the person I'd lost touch with for way too many years...she emailed me and we have re-connected - YEA!  I'm figuring it's been at least 12 years, because her oldest daughter is hoping to get into Brown University next fall!  So...I have one more on the list to try to re-connect with....

KEY WEST...what can I say?  Hot.  And another serious disappointment when it came to seeing wildlife.  In Arizona, which included a side trip to the Grand Canyon and 2 days in Prescott, I saw the following animals:  javelina, birds, bunny, hummingbird, sheep, rooster, cows, deer, gecko, small dragon.  I did not see a coyote or road runner (as Becca promised!)

In Key West I saw: birds, roosters (lots of them!), gecko, flying fish and swimming fish.  I did not see the iguana (as Becca promised!).  See a theme?  Becca's got to stop promising me wildlife at these places!

Today I spent the morning going through my memory box: a 10" x 18" Winnie the Pooh box that I keep cards and letters, some pictures, magazines, etc. in.  It actually started as a clean-out-your-closet project and I got sidetracked!  In my memory box I found lots of letters from my brother Paul (who has now remained at-large for 18 months), a few from mom (tears), my journal from my child psychotherapy days (I used it in supervision and to analyze my counter-transference issues), and two things that made me smile.

One was a mix tape that ML had made me to listen to when I moved from Dallas to NYC.  It was a 3-day drive, my car full of clothes, books and 10:10, the philodendron she had given me my first X-Mas in Dallas.  We called the plant 10:10 because that's when ML and I had our debriefs from the day.  We'd sit in her room, listening to music and chat about the girls in our casa, the kids around campus, and her crush on David (whom she married!).  10:10 sits in my home office now - about 5 ft. from where I am now.  10:10 will be 13 years old this X-Mas!  But I digress.  I've been enjoying the tape this afternoon:  Journey, Bruce Springstein, Kenny Loggins, Rush, Bread...it's a great mix!

The second thing I found in my memory box was something that I had been thinking about while in Key West.  Right before I left for college (in fact, the date on the bottom is 8/18/80), I found a little poem (anonymous) that stuck with me so strongly, I can still recite it from memory.  It's a poem that pops into my head every now and again, mostly when I'm tired and trying to figure out "what's it all about...Alfie..."  How funny to return home and find it! 

Sometimes

I lie awake at night and wonder,

When I am gone, will anyone cry?  Will anyone care?

Will I, during my cast life, though I have lived through a countless multitude of dreams, thoughts, ideas,

Have left behind one, single moment that is remembered, noticed, cherished?

Or will it all mean nothing and fade.  I wonder.

HEY!  HEY!  I'll be in the office on Thursday!  I have a meeting from 10-noon, then I meet with Diane in the afternoon.  I'll probably get there before 10:00am, so be prepared for me to poke my head into your office!  Hope to see some of you then!

 

 

 

10/03/2007

Live from the Conch Republic!

Greetings from the hottest, southernmost place in the US of A!  Youch!  I'm down here with the crew and their spouses...having a very pleasant, fun, relaxing, easy time.  I wasn't sure what to expect with nine people, many new faces and personalities.  But it has worked out very well.  We've done things together as a big group (tomorrow we go snorkeling in the Dry Tortugas) and in little groups.  We've had time to talk work, time to sing, lots of time to cook and eat, and time to just enjoy one another's company.

The week is going quickly now that we are on the downside of the week.  This is the point where you begin thinking about all the things you wished you had time for :)

Next week I will be in Philly on Thursday.  I have the results of my testing and will be meeting with Diane for lunch.  It's time to reconnect with BBBSA and hear what they have been thinking about my role at the agency.  I've pushed some ideas Diane's way...we'll see what is peculating.  I'm open to any thoughts, suggestions or recommendations before I go. 

My key question will be whether any change has occurred while I've been gone or has it remained status quo?  I realize the budget issues have been a priority.  My timing couldn't have been worse I suppose, but who knew?!  I know that there has been turnover in the last couple of months.  Not in the places that we perhaps need it.

I'm worried about some of you and the increasing pressure and pace.  I'm worried that you may not be able to hang on or that you, too, are burning out quickly.  I want to know how I can help...if I can.  I wish I could just shake the whole thing up like a snow globe and that when it settled, things would be better...calmer...focused.  Perhaps they're getting that way.  I'd like to know what you think.

OK...I'm trying to have faith and let things work in me and not be in so much control.  It's hard.  Lots of stuff to still work through in that arena :-)