If I'm angry - my feelings are directed at dad.
If I'm guilty - then I must have my own feelings.
Is there a better choice? Does one have a choice?
Suppose dad really knew he was going to die. And he either couldn't or wouldn't tell us? Then is my anger justified? Is that really what I'm looking for? Justification for my anger that he is dead?
Or do I want forgiveness? Forgiveness for...not being there...not being assertive enough to find out how ill he was? Forgiveness for not being affected enough?
What did you chose?
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